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Tuesday 7 October 2014

Eulogy For A Junkie

On the patio of the Amadeu’s, a bar known by regulars as The Lisbon Plate or just The Plate there was a memorial. People had gathered because Fred Mamo had died, Claire was amazed he had lived as long as he did; he’d been a junkie for 23 years.
Years ago, coming home to the communal house they shared on McCaul Street, one morning slim, tall and blond Sara M. excitedly told Claire about the amazing Fred she had met and spent the last few days with, “he’s into vintage clothing, he’s a great dresser. He’s Maltese! And has a British accent!” As a bonus he did heroin too, such were their priorities in 1991.
Fred had quickly disappointed Sara and since then Claire didn’t trust him. It wasn’t the smack that she distrusted, Claire used too, everybody did, it was just he was always in Kensington Market, sitting at The Plate. He was a dandy, always dapper, unaccountably cheerful, gainfully unemployed, smarmy, drunk and drugged.
Claire hadn’t seen him for a while, that happens in KM people straighten out, go clean or go back home or go to jail. Or die. No world plague for them, these were personally manageable premature deaths.
Like Julian a young black guy, rumored to be the son of University of Toronto profs, in high KISS boots wearing a florescent pink wig with bangs, pan-handling in a back laneway when he could stand, beaten to death there when he couldn’t.
Like Paris, a charismatic tale graceful black man, he might have been a dancer once, exuberantly selling his homemade hot sauce, gone with a heart attack overnight.
Like Bruce, in a kilt and a tam with a red beard, he was a window cleaner with the tools of his trade aerodynamically strapped to his bike, going door to door, then suddenly gone for good having volunteered (killed himself).
Like Bosh, a handsome, East Indian hunk in bulky black leather jacket covered in band patches, studs and chains. He was a Bunch of Fucking Goofs groupie, with a big dog (son of Derty Dawg’s maybe?), wanly smiling one day, and dead of an overdose the next, just like local and famous Rock-a-Billy, Handsome Ned.
Even Amadau, the amicable Portuguese owner of the bar, died prematurely in a car crash. Ironic, having watched his patrons try to poison themselves night after night, year after year.
Jeez, the list went on and on and on. Claire realized there were few women on it; they were left to ease the remembrance.
The people on the patio would remind each other how Keith Whitaker died. He fronted the band The Demics, and sang the big hit someone is still getting royalties for, the chorus goes, “ I wanna go to New York City…” Keith hated it.
Claire had always considered Keith “good” cranky guy versus, say, the “bad” cranky ones, (several of whom were on the patio that day).
Keith was a committed alcoholic, an ex-pat with grimy leather pants, faded, almost illegible band t-shirt, unshaven, terrible teeth, husky voice, and ever-present stubby ciggie between gold stained fingertips. Flip, self-serving, critical, but ostensibly honest, he’d arrive at The Plate with a newspaper quartered under his arm like a racing form noonish then with a cup of tea, in a smoke filtered sunbeam, do the crossword puzzle and scold and swear at everyone except his beautiful girlfriend. Usually he was still there long after dusk, evermore vocal with many pints of cheap draft, fighting with patrons and ending the night, staggering to a cab and home on enduring Sue’s arm.
Always prettily made-up and pulled together, for Sue everyday was a special occasion, she also had a British accent, she would open-mindedly look deep into the eyes of whatever lonely heart was pouring its out that evening and make a loyal friend for life. She was Keith’s support right through to the bitter end. It used to be pretty high status to sit at Keith and Sue’s table at The Lisbon Plate.
Claire went to visit Keith and Sue at home when he was almost done. On a hot summers night, he was covered lightly with a crumpled white sheet for modesty. He had big lumps on his neck, thighs and torso, remaining teeth gone and so pale. He died two days later and has been mourned ever since, the events of his life and death repeated into lore at the Amadeus.
Claire had developed a personal policy about meeting people there: do not, DO NOT smile when being first introduced to anyone at The Plate; you could end up married to them and only realize years later that your careless nicety had ruined your life.
Claire had seen Fred Mamo fairly recently actually, on a rare sunny day in March perhaps? He was crossing Augusta from the bar to Friendly’s Bakery, well known for provenance of street drugs. He was dressed that day as a Gallant Lumberjack wearing perfectly pressed tan coloured gabardine pants with suspenders, a red and black plaid viella shirt tucked in, bright white T-shirt peaking at the neck. He had a jaunty hat on, Tyrolean perhaps, same colour as the pants with a burgundy ribbon.
He had seen Claire too, shown her a big sincere, full face-of-delight smile and did a charming Charlie Chaplin one-legged double hop as if he planned to change direction. Then he continued on after whoever he’d been following, perhaps Ruth, who Claire found out later was his last girlfriend.
For sure he knew then, what everyone knew now, he was dying of lung cancer: delighted for one day of reprieve, in the sun, in Kensington Market, just doing his own thing.
Claire went to the memorial much later than invited, 8:30 -it was still light out. At a table with regulars from the old days: Adly, Scotty, Shoney, and a lady who had given her $60 when she was down once, but who’s name Claire never knew or had forgotten, she listened to reminiscences and reminders about Julian, Paris, Bosh, the others, Keith and beautiful Sue who was still winning hearts. A little later at another table Claire was reluctant at first, to sit with three ladies, all of whom, had been girlfriends of Fred, Each one an elegant, composed Toronto dame, a bit tipsy, with bright eyes and stories for days including her old roommate, still stunning and now a successful costume designer, Sara. Sara wore a tiny black chapeau with a swoop of black feather and tulle veil, the hat perfect for a Yorkshire terrier. She carefully tucked it away for safekeeping until needed again.

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